Back when we were certifying as foster parents, our "qualification" paperwork required a lot of responses regarding any "losses" that we may have felt over the years. The concept of a "loss" was new to me at the time and though I feel a bit lame saying it, I really had to stretch to think of any loss that I had experienced in my life that had left sufficient impression to warrant documentation (I guess I am lucky.) In fact, thinking back at what I must have listed, the only item I can actually recall at this particular moment is the passing of two of my grandparents.
I feel compelled to return from an inadvertent blog hiatus today to record an old and atrophied, seldom-used and mostly forgotten feeling that has gradually settled on me in the way a silent cloud of ash first dusts, then coats, then covers. It is loss.
A faithful friend of 3 years is gone. Gone forever I'd guess. Justin, the livestock guard dog and the best dog we've ever had (by a long shot) went today to a new home with some lady who promised him a good home in the country East of Dallas. Now, I'm not a smart man, but I know what love is. At least that is what they say. What do I say? I loved that dog. Today, this ranch/house is no longer our home. That's all I have to say about that.
In other news, I have to give props to Jessica. As I walk around this house (which is rapidly becoming more and more empty as each and every day progresses) I realize how much work this woman has been doing. I mean, this move (which was feared by me to be the worst of any move thus far in our short lives) is rapidly becoming a 2-3 hour job. Over the last month or so, she has worked tirelessly to sell/donate/clean/organize/consolidate and pack our things to a uber-condensed version of our former clutter. It really is amazing - this girl is a worker, and I do love her - even more than the dog....like a lot more...it's hard to describe....I am gonna stop now.
4 comments:
I love and will miss your dear wife as well as your family embarks on this new adventure. But also to know Justin is gone my heart is a bit teary as well. He is a very special dog. And I don't just say that cause I am a "dog" person. I will feel his loss along with that of your entire family.
Love ya guys!
You trying to make me cry?
I love that dog too, and I believe he is the first dog I truly loved. Just thinking that he is no longer at the house, makes me want to cry. And then you throw your nice little tribute for me in there....
I love you too! And more than the dog.
I admit to chuckling a little bit at you and Jessica's sweetness. Not many people can put such feeling into a statement like "I love you more than the dog." It's cute.
...And that's probably the closest I've come to insulting you in a long time...
kind of reminds me of one time when we were dating Mark told me, "I love you more than Church history." which if you know Mark, is a pretty big deal.
you guys are leaving a lot behind. you just don't know what awesome things you'll find next.
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